Memento Mori or Carpe Diem?

I have been feeling a bit down in the dumps ever since I got up this morning. Perhaps it is due to the fact that I barely got any sleep last night, and I can very well qualify myself as a sleeping addict, though I have a feeling this inexplicable sadness of mine may have deeper roots.

Have you ever had one of those days where you were sad for no reason?

Have you ever though that maybe, just maybe, there is nothing wrong with you, but with the world around you?

Damn, I have always been in love with deep dramatic inner battles of people in literature and film, watching the main hero trying to conquer what seems impossible - can anything else be more inspiring?

Our lives move so quickly, that it becomes painful to live like that. It is in days like these, when the quickness of my pace finally gets to me, that I realize that this is a horrible way to live your life, the only one life that you have. When you are constantly aiming for success, constantly watching your back in order not to get stabbed by your closest friends, worrying about the consequences and costs of your actions, as if you have no freedom in the world, even though you think of yourself as a free person.

I hate to admit this, but we are all birds in a cage, trying to survive on a daily basis, aware of the fact that we are growing older and that it gets more difficult to cope with life as we approach death.

Memento Mori or Carpe Diem, which one do you choose?

Do you keep living your life blissfully ignorant or choose another path?

Do you believe that happiness can really be achieved in a life like this, on a planet like ours, in a society we choose not to change?

I once thought I knew the path to my happiness. It is only when God decided to put and end to that path much earlier than I have envisioned, that I have begun to question if I have chosen the right path in the first place.

Now, I am path-less. I am not feeling fine, nor am I feeling sad, I am just living on a day to day basis, fulfilling what are globally meaningless tasks, trying to cope with not being able to cope.

Is that not what we are all doing? Coping with the fact that we are unable to cope with something?

Being the hero in my book, I know a long journey of battling is in front of me, it rests to be seen whether my story will have a happy ending.

Do not forget that you are all heroes in your own books, you should not let those pages be wasted with meaningless words and exploits, when your book could become the best one there is and ever was.

Is it possible to find a balance between remembering the existence of death and seizing the day?

Should you ever find a recipe, please do not keep it to yourself. It would be refreshing to not have to make life-changing choices regularly.

In hope that your Friday evening was much funnier and more amusing than mine, I wish you a relaxing and interesting weekend,

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